One Month

Better late then never. .. .

Photos by Smoo

Dear Cordelia,

Baby girl it has been a very long month, it feels like you have been part of our family forever and I cannot imagine life without you. I have learned many things this month and I have been amazed by many things this month. 

I have learned how amazing life is, and how crazy it is that your father and I created life when we created you. I truly know, without a shadow of doubt that all of the time I struggled while I was pregnant was worth it, 100% worth it.   

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 I have learned that a person does not know, or understand fear, until they become a parent. I learned this when you were exactly a week old and we had to take you to the emergency room. Nothing can describe the feelings your father and I felt as you lay on the hospital bed, and nothing can describe the feeling of relief when we found out you were ok. 

I have learned that holding a newborn baby can help people work through great grief and sadness, it can give new hope and help people understand the circle of life. Holding you has helped me understand this too. 

I have learned that breastfeeding is hard, but I am so happy that it is something I can do for you, and I love the moments I share with you because they are unique to you and I.

 I have learned that many people feel your birth erases their own nasty behavior, but I have also learned to never let their behavior sully my time with you. 

I am so amazed by you. You have grown so much! You weigh 11 lbs now and you grew a whole inch! You are so much more awake and I can see you seeing me. At first I had no idea what we should do when you were awake, and sometimes all we do is stare at each other. 

I am amazed by the peace and love that you fill me with, even when I can't figure out why you are crying ;) I hope that you will always know how special you are, and how much your father and I love you. 

Your father explains life and his emotions with song lyrics, I conclude this post with lyrics that express his feelings now.

Thank you for the branch you grew on this tree.

Your first breath wasn't easy to find.

So you signified the mountain you climbed,

By lettin' out a warriors cry and it sounded like mine.

Now everybody hold up the family sign.

-Something So, Atmosphere